Hello… long time no see🙂
So this is a therapy for my lost. Yet, another lost.
This Tuesday, I went to the doctor for a check up.
Last Saturday, I bled a lot.
That was the 10th days of my period. During the bleeding process, I found blood clots. Those clots were stuck on the duct when I flushed them. Curious, I took and squeezed them but they didn’t shattered. My curiosity turned into fear. What are those clots?
I told my husband and he recommend me to go to see the doctor.
Then here I am. In front of the lab. Waiting.
The doctor told me that there’s a possibility of me being pregnant, but then the fetus shattered. I asked whether any other possibilities besides pregnancy-cyst, for example? But the doctor said No.
After the abdomen USG check, the doctor said there’s nothing inside my womb. It’s clean already. Then he suggested me to do a pregnancy test.
So here I am. In front of the lab. Waiting.
Then I heard my name called.
The nurse said, “Congratulations, ma’am. It’s positive. You are pregnant”
It was the first time in my life I was being overwhelmed of mixed feelings. What should I tell to my husband? That I’m pregnant but I had lost it?
I knew that he really wanted another baby.
I walked down the stairs then move over to the left, find the toilet.
Tried to calm myself.
But I ain’t that strong. I cried. A lot.
How could I being so stupid?
How could I was not realize that I was pregnant?
How could I? and all of the unbelievable silly unanswered questions.